Have my thinking change?

hmm... i yesterday have a lot of thoughts of wat to say in blog... now i don't know what to write... let's try writing what happened... i got two friends in relationship... this couple have so many problems in their relationship... seeing them like that really make me think that maintaining relationship is not as east as i think... so it really makes ppl wake up from their own fantasy... not that it had already destroyed my fantasy toward romance, but i'm just starting to learn how to be afraid of relationship... having a relationship is not just about two ppl.... it still have a lot of factor to be considered...
so yesterday when my another friend msg me... i was kind of weird... i keep on asking him a lot of weird question... haha... just suddenly felt that i got a lot of reflection yesterday... about how immature i'm sometimes... needing a lot of ppl's care... then my friend said that he can also take care of me too, as a friend... now i find it sweet... when he said that at that time... i was feeling very depressed so got no feeling... haha... not tat i'm blaming my friends, the ones in relationship, who dump so many info on me... its just that i also need some place to vent... haha... i don mind lending my friends my ear... cause lending my ear to them is what a friend will do for their friend...

whoa... without realising i have already wrote so much... k... i m not going to crap already... hahaha...